It's 3.17am, and I can't sleep thanks to my 12 hour sleep yesterday. I think I'm having a migraine because just now, half of my head felt like exploding. What the heck, I'm a mess anyway.

It seems that I am not in control of my life anymore. I have many plans but most of them were put on hold because many variables that seem to be disagree with my plans. If only just once everything runs smoothly...

I need a breakthrough, a miracle to happen to my life. I know, I've experienced many miracles in my life, but I can't help but to beg for more.

All I need right now is a stable life. I don't want to live on the edge anymore. I need a routine that I can stick on to. I'm getting old for spontaneity.