Lately I returned to my old habit: browsing men through myspace and chatting in gay chat rooms. To be honest, I just want to reach out to 'my kinds' out there. However, in chat rooms, all conversation leads to one thing: sex. Every chatters seems to have the same mission, which is to score an ass. Usually I was asked for one night stands, but I became kinda sick of all this shit.

I have a myspace account, a place where I put all my gay networks, and browse for hot men. To conceal my identity I put a faceless profile picture. Some say I'm dishonest, that I am a fraud, or that I am a coward for not revealing my true identity. It's simply I choose not to, its kinda my prerogative, kinda take it or leave it thing.

In myspace, I met this super cute guy (picture). He's 21 and he's totally my taste. But I guess my chance is pretty slim coz I'm sure he have hundreds of worshippers that are better than me. Nevertheless, we do contact each other, sending texts and stuff.

I got a chance to have a proper conversation with the cafe guy. He seems more matured than me. He told me that currently he live with the cafe workers in a house not far from here, and he has another house in the city where he live with a girlfriend. He seems nice though. Every time I see him, I try to remember his traits so I perhaps I can draw his portrait one day.

Today is the last day of 2007. I have no plan to celebrate since I'm pretty tired today. 2007 has been an OK year, so Ii hope that 2008 will be so much awesome.

I resolve that I will make full use of any potential I can get in 2008. I will live life to the fullest, be more positive in life and worry less. Man, that does sound like a tall order.A happy new year to you.