Fucking moody again

and my weight is falling down. I am considering to be in the below 70 kg category.

workout: shoulder x2, abs
weight 76kg/169 lbs

I didn't do any workout in the last 3 days, so I inevitably dragged myself to the gym today. Heck, I even missed my afternoon session. I feel like I'm losing my focus.

Earlier today, I chatted with one of my old flame, and I emailed my latest pic to him. He was impressed and could wait to suck my dick. Well he didn't say that, but I know him. He even push the envelope by saying that I can model. Bah, whatever.

Workout: Chest, Abs
Weight: 77kg/170lbs

lately I've been slacking at LIFE

Gotta get back in track. pronto!

workout: triceps, biceps, chest, abs
weight: 78kg/172lbs

effing moody again

workout: back x2, abs
weight: 77kg/ 170 lbs

workout: shoulder x2, abs
weight: 77kg 170 lbs

I had a bad day at work today. One of the liaison officer in my office is a total bitch times 10. So is her husband. I hope they die in fire with their kids. I like it extra crispy.

I though the bad mood will effect my workout, but everything turned out fine. I did chest workout in afternoon and evening session, and I worked hard. I emptied both of my water bottles and right now I'm having a minor headache, which possibly cause by lack of water. Dehydration sucks.

Anyways, today one of old gym member showed up and we were thrilled. He looks like he's losing a lot of weight. He used to be the biggest guy around, waaaay back when I was a scrawny pussy. He said that he's going to start working out again tomorrow and we'll see what happened.

Workout: chest x2, abs
weight: 77kg / 170 lbs

As the resul from yesterday's over workout and lack of sleep, I was half awake the whole time at work. By the time my office hours ended, I barely could open my eyes. So I decided to skip the afternoon session and get some much needed sleep.

Today was shoulder day, and it was not easy, like at all. I was struggling with my 88lbs shoulder lift but I finished everything nonetheless. It was extra hot today, so I was shirtless the whole time, and my sweat was like, all over the place. I mean, ALL OVER. I almost thought I was melting.

workout: Shoulder, Abs
weight: 77kg/170lbs

So as I predicted, Yan and AJ totally bailed on their 14 days of terror challenge. They did workout in the morning and afternoon, but that was it. Pussies.

I did extra load of work out today. And I changed my diet a bit, by having extra eggs right before the evening session. I don't think it really works, cuz I'm still so damn full throughout the training and after the training.

Jesse came a lil bit late, but I had the opportunity to spot him. He also gave me some workout tips, which I will add into my routines. We were both shirtless at some point of the workout, and I look like a pussy next to him. I need to work my butt off.

workout: abs, chest x2
weight: 77 kg / 170 lbs

Did the chest workout in the afternoon session and back and biceps for the evening session.

I'm still a lil bit down from yesterday, but I guess things are alright.

Tomorrow, me and UD are going to go all out, coz Yan and AJ challange us for their 14 days of terror. Basically it's a hardcore workout session to see if anything can change in 14 days. Bitch, it's on!

workout: chest, back, biceps, abs
weight: 77 kgs/ 170 lbs

Back workout in the afternoon session. I tore the wrist strap while dead lifting 242 lbs. Damnit! I planned to re-do the back workout in the evening session, but my current gym partner, UD told me that his back hurts so we did the triceps instead.

I guess today is the day where I went emo and shit. I mean, it looks like I have no progress at all. I'm tired and disappointed and pissed. I know its all mind games and shit, coz one day I feel good and the next day I might feel shitty. Sometimes when I look into the mirror, I like what I see, but sometimes I just go 'You look like a piece of shit'. I psyching myself down.

Hope I feel better tomorrow.

workout: back, triceps, abs
weight: 77 kg/ 172 lbs.

4 days rest totally made me weak as shit. I was struggling with my shoulder training today. What a pussy!

Workout: Shoulder x2, abs, triceps
weight: 77 kg/ 170 lbs

I was away for the last 3 days visiting my parents. No workout and I ate as much as I please.

Clearly trying to restart the workout turned out to be a bitch. I did the chest workout, and I was yawning the whole time. I was waaaay sleepy.

Woukout: Chest, abs
Weight: 77 kg/ 170 lbs.

It started as a great session. The gym was packed but that's old news. Jesse was there today, but we didn't partnered because we have different workouts. I even manage to dead lift 265 lbs. But then towards the end of the session, some people blurted out the wrong word and my mood turned 180. As usual, I isolate myself with my music, eyes on the floor, ignoring everybody.

After the workout theres a gay couple (a daddy and his twink) sat next to my table. I was a lil bit excited, but that was it.

Workout: Back x2, legs, abs
Weight: 77kg / 172 lbs

Ok lately I'm in no mood for blogging, but since I am a few days behind, so somehow I have to do this. I have no idea what I just wrote. whatever.

On the weekend, I attended a company outings in a jungle resort or some sort. This is where we meet co-workers and old friends from other branches. I must say that the cross barrier thing was not challenging at all. In fact the program was like a leisure time, a moment for chillaxing. The good thing is, some of my old co-worker noticed my physique changes. They touched me and everything. I felt so used, but it is kinda great too. To be honest, I don't think I show any changes at all. But whatevs.

Come Monday I missed my afternoon session because I have extra job to do at the office. I was mad pissed. Which continued till the night session. I put on my music and blocked all distraction. No eye contact. No talking. Just me and the weight.

Yesterday I did good. Worked the shoulder twice and stuff.

Monday
Workout: Chest, Abs, Triceps
Weight: 77 kg/ 172 lbs

Tuesday
Workout: Abs, Shoulder x2
Weight: 76 kg/ 170 lbs

Just got back from the workout. Nothing too serious today, just some triceps workouts and other stuff, but still, I'm waaaaaay too tired.

Anyways, Jesse was at the gym during the night session, and at some point I spotted him. Pure heaven. A lot of sex and gay jokes spewed and both of us enjoyed it. I manage to impress him with my bench press, and he said that both of us can be partners - so we can grow big together. TOGETHER! I died and gone to heaven. After the workout, we have a lil chat. He told me that the anabolic pills that I'm using right now are poison which over time will damage my liver and kidneys. He took it a while back and after a month of hardwork, everything was lost after a alcohol fuelled weekend. He said that it's ok to take it but at some point, I have to quit it. Well, that's my plan obviously - once I reached my ideal look. Billy and Salem were there too, but it seems like I'm over them.

I have an outstation for the next 3 days so I will neither going to the gym nor update this blog.

workout: abs, triceps x2
weight: 77 kg/ 172 lbs

I'm getting really tired by each passing day. Like REALLY dog tired.

I was in a super bad mood at work today. My co-worker is being a mega double faced back stabbing slutfaced ho bag. I hope she dies a horrible death and then I'll pee on her grave. I would be honored to slap the ugly off her face, but I can't since her husband is a good friend of mine.

Anyways, it was back workout day, and it was hell. I lifted 220 lbs twice (a big deal to me), and I've been thinking to add another 40 lbs in the next workout.

Workout: abs, back x2
weight: 78 kg/ 172 lbs.

Did the shoulder workouts today, and I'm totally spent.

People starts giving me shits after the session, that means I'm really big.

Right now I'm contemplating on taking protein supllements, which will make my body even bigger but I need lotsa $$$

workout: Abs, shoulder x2
weight: 78 kg, 172 lbs

Right now me and UD are working on new regime. Instead of training on different workout for afternoon and night session, we are going to try on working on the same workout for both session. So today is the chest day. Like any other Monday, the gym was fucking packed. On night session, there was the ever so beautiful Jesse. We were horsing around and stuff and he's cool with it.

I have to say that the abs workout I did really works. The muscles started to show and I lost my pouch. I measured my waist and it's 30''. Awesome.

Tomorrow is the shoulder day. Hope I can make it.

On the other note, I'm beginning to feel very tired, but I am sticking to my mantra, "Fuck that shit". I ain't stopping.

Workout: Abs, chest x2
weight: 77kg, 170 lbs

Lately I'm in no mood for blogging.

workout: abs, chest, back
weight: 76kg / 168 lbs (I know right, what the fuck?!)

still in a bad mood...

workout: abs, shoulder x 2
weight: 77kg/ 170lbs