So as I predicted, Yan and AJ totally bailed on their 14 days of terror challenge. They did workout in the morning and afternoon, but that was it. Pussies.

I did extra load of work out today. And I changed my diet a bit, by having extra eggs right before the evening session. I don't think it really works, cuz I'm still so damn full throughout the training and after the training.

Jesse came a lil bit late, but I had the opportunity to spot him. He also gave me some workout tips, which I will add into my routines. We were both shirtless at some point of the workout, and I look like a pussy next to him. I need to work my butt off.

workout: abs, chest x2
weight: 77 kg / 170 lbs

Just got back from the workout. Nothing too serious today, just some triceps workouts and other stuff, but still, I'm waaaaaay too tired.

Anyways, Jesse was at the gym during the night session, and at some point I spotted him. Pure heaven. A lot of sex and gay jokes spewed and both of us enjoyed it. I manage to impress him with my bench press, and he said that both of us can be partners - so we can grow big together. TOGETHER! I died and gone to heaven. After the workout, we have a lil chat. He told me that the anabolic pills that I'm using right now are poison which over time will damage my liver and kidneys. He took it a while back and after a month of hardwork, everything was lost after a alcohol fuelled weekend. He said that it's ok to take it but at some point, I have to quit it. Well, that's my plan obviously - once I reached my ideal look. Billy and Salem were there too, but it seems like I'm over them.

I have an outstation for the next 3 days so I will neither going to the gym nor update this blog.

workout: abs, triceps x2
weight: 77 kg/ 172 lbs

Right now me and UD are working on new regime. Instead of training on different workout for afternoon and night session, we are going to try on working on the same workout for both session. So today is the chest day. Like any other Monday, the gym was fucking packed. On night session, there was the ever so beautiful Jesse. We were horsing around and stuff and he's cool with it.

I have to say that the abs workout I did really works. The muscles started to show and I lost my pouch. I measured my waist and it's 30''. Awesome.

Tomorrow is the shoulder day. Hope I can make it.

On the other note, I'm beginning to feel very tired, but I am sticking to my mantra, "Fuck that shit". I ain't stopping.

Workout: Abs, chest x2
weight: 77kg, 170 lbs

I started really early today. Right after my office hours ended, I went straight to the gym. I did the shoulder training with UD, but it was less severe the last session. My shoulders are a-ok. The night session started with the back workout with Jesse, a drop dead gorgeous guy. I mean, he's really REALLY pretty. Lean body with rippling muscles, and a cute face to boot. And he works as a bodyguard, which is a waste since he can easily become a model. Anyways, in order to impress him, I did the 100 kg deadlift. And what a mistake it was. My lower back was in pain, and still hurt right now. I soldiered out to finish all the workout, and in the process I manage to break a random weight belt. Shit is weak. I finished my bak workout in an hour, only to find that I have another hour to go. So I did random exercises like abs workout, dips and some biceps curls.

Workout: Shoulder, Back
Weight: 79 kg, 174 lbs.

I went to the gym right after I finish my work hour. I did the back workout which is painful. I don't really understand why, but since last Monday, the gym is packed with droves of people. New faces popping out mainly young college kids around here. Since I'm a little exhibitionist, I know people are looking at me busting my nuts, and somehow it gives me drive to push even harder. I was sweating like a motherfucker, my white tshirt was completely see through and my shorts were totally drenched. I took a break around 7, walked too my house, had some raisin bread, and changed my clothes. And man did I smell like piss. I felt like I was given a golden shower.

Around 8 I returned to the gym and did the light chest workout. The gym was still packed. And guess who tag along with my workout. It's Billy! A funny thing happened, while I supported his bench press, my sweat was literally raining on his face. It was gross actually, but I'm kinda glad it did, so he can have a taste of me. Haha. I hope he's coming back for more.

And right now, I'm so tired, I feel like dying.

workout: Back, Chest
weight: 77 kg/170lbs

I had a meeting at 9pm, so I had to workout waaay early than usual. I planned to have a simple workout but then UD told me that there's something wrong with my shoulder, and he's right. It is smaller. I haven't focused on shoulder training that much, so perhaps I had it coming. UD then helped me with the workout, which was hell. He really kicked my ass. I was gasping for air like a fish out of water.

In my afternoon nap, I dreamed about Yan. Well I'm not sexually attracted to him, but he's more like a big bro to me (eventho I'm taller, and soon bigger than him). I forgot about the dream... wait, now I remembered it! We were at a stage or something and he forced me to sing on a karaoke. I did it, because so far I did whatever he told me to.

And I saw Salem too...

Workout: Shoulder
Weight: 78 kg/172 lbs

I was busting my ass really hard today. 5 hours of working out. Crazy! I am totally spent, and right now I smell like death. I lifted 70kg in bench press today, eventho I can feel my head exploding.

Yesterday was quite an awesome day to me. The gym was empty, then there came Billy. Our eyes met and we send greetings through signs. Whatever it means. After being coy for sometime, I approached him casually and have a lil chat. My God, he's even more gorgeous in person. He's a chill dude.

Then after the session, me and Yan went for a drink and then there came Salem. Fuck he's hot! I didn't talk much, concentrating on my cigarettes, almost like sending messages red indian style. But we talked nonetheless. He's one cool dude. And he's married. Bummer. With kids. Even bummerer. As long as I can oggle on his hot bod, I dont really give a fuck.

workout: Chest, abs
weight: 77.5 kg/171 lbs.

Today's workout is alright. I actually enjoyed it even though my much bigger and stronnger gym buddy kicked my ass. He pushed me to the limits, which is good. While I was doing my workouts, Salem, the love of my life, corrected my techniques. I almost cum in my mouth.

workout: back and biceps
weight: 77 kg/ 170 lbs

Today I had a bad gym day. I was moody and tired. I did the chest workout, and I couldn't lift shit. I finished my workouts nonetheless, and then I proceed with some triceps and abs workout. I was way tired.

Oh, the guy I told you about yesterday, his name is Salem. I saw him today. He looks like he is in trouble. He wasn't working out today.

current weight: 76 kg/168 lbs

Just got back from the daily workout. I sweat so much, my sweatpants are literally wet right now. In the next 3 months, I'm going all out.

There's this guy from the gym that really caught my eye. He's totally my type. Hot body, nice face, but mostly, he's a real man. I bet he's a lil homophobic, but you know what they say about all homophobes, they're all closeted.

Today he made a comment about my body. A positive comment. I was overjoyed but I kept it cool. He totally made my day.

Damn, I forgot his name. He's gorgeous. I fantasized about him for sometimes now. Oh all the dirty things I would do to him.

At least I have an extra motivation to go to the gym. Fuck yeah!

It's been 6 months since I started dwelling the gym. Although my body shown some improvement, I'm way not satisfied, yet. I need bigger muscles.

Anyways, I started to take performance enhacement drug. They are not steroids (because steroids equals bitch tits), and the come in a very tiny hexagon shaped pill. The pill make my heart pumps a little bit faster so it can supply more blood for oxygen and nutrients. But I had only taken the pills for 2 days, so it's too early to say the effectiveness of the drug. If it dont work, I'll quit.

I'm still unlucky in the love section. There's a guy in the gym which I really fancy, and his name is Billy. He's really good looking and seems cool too. Maybe I'll lure him into my trap. Bahaha!

It's been forever since I last update anything in this blog. Mainly it's because nothing really interesting happened. I'm living a routine life.

Anyways, my body has shown some progress. My chest is bigger, my arms look ok, but most improved area is my back I think. I never knew that people can develop muscle on their back.

Well I'll keep on working coz I'm still not satisfied with my look yet. If only I can look like those dudes in the pictures.

It's been a month since I joined the gym. Although its a hardwork, I totally enjoyed it. Now, there's something to wake up for each day. I put up a couple of pounds and my body is taking shape. Right now I have a goal, to get awesome chest and to get 6 packs abs (ok that's 2 but whatever).

On the other news, I came out to this one person I trusted the most. I've been calling her 'mom' for sometimes (she's not my real mom) and she's kinda a big deal around here. I couldn't sleep that night because I had this sick feeling in my tummy the whole night. Half of me regret it and half of me says who cares. She's OK with it.

Oh, I've been stalking this guy for sometimes. He's a soccer player and I bet he's a typical jerk jock. But he's hot. Too hot.

So I went to the gym today, and frankly it was awkward. There's a lot of buff guys there and I felt like I'm a retarded for being the only skinny guy there. But there was this one fat guy, so...

Anyway, I didn't see the said gym guy. Either it was too dark and my mind was playing tricks on me that night, or the gym guy simply was on his off night. The gym was shit. Most of the things are broken anyways. I rode the bicycle for like 30 minutes coz I have no idea what to work on. I sweat so much that I can see my nipples through my wet white t-shirt. An hour and a half later I was out.

I planned to have another visit tomorrow. Let's see how it goes.

I had been meaning to go to the gym for some times now but I have absolute zero motivation. I've been procrastinating and keep giving myself excuses. Today, after having a quick dinner at Mc Donalds, on my walk to home, I came across this dashing guy. He wore a black sweatpants and a black tank top and his body is ripping hard. I just glanced at him, and still I remembered his gorgeous face right now. Anyway he has this small towel in his hand. At first I thought he was just having a night jogging, but then it strucked me that he just returned from the gym.

So, tomorow I'll be in the gym if ya'll need me.